Wednesday, November 10, 2010

'It Really Hurts'

'It Really hurts and I don't know what to do'

I am in a meeting and Stephanie's call tells me I need to get home.  Once there its clear I need to get her to the ER for another IV to control the pain.   Radiation treatments start in the morning.   We can't help but feel anxious.

Wednesday  a very painful challenging day.  

We arrive at Huntsman for our 930am radiation appointment.  Because of the severe pain the radiation is canceled and stephanie is admitted.   

Its now 8:35pm as I find a moment to write.  The breakthrough pain for Stephanie is still serious.

 I can't help but feel, we have been cheated.  

Stephanie is here 40 years to soon.

I don't know what to do.

So many things to write........I can't do it today.    


  1. We fasted on Sunday for Steph and the family. We think about you every day. Love you uncle Tom.

  2. Tom and Stephanie,
    I was so touched by your last comments. I hurt for both of you. I want you to know I love you deeply my thoughts and prayers are with you daily.

  3. Tears in my eyes....

    I think of you!


  4. So sorry to hear this news. I was touched by Jensen's positive outlook. You have great kids. We'll be sure to keep your family in our prayers.
    - Whitney Parker Hale

  5. I agree with you, I feel you and Stephanie and your family are being cheated and it is all not fair. Life stinks sometimes.
    Kirk was teaching a children's class yesterday at church. In the lesson he told a story about a little baby bird who was ready to be hatched. He taught them how the little baby bird would ultimately peck his way out of his shell when he was ready to be born...most often taking a long time and a lot of effort on this little birds part. He shared with the kids how easily someone could come and just help the bird be hatched by just breaking the egg shell, but then the little bird would not have built up his beak strength that he so desperately needs. Sometimes I think we are like this little the process of pecking our way through difficut things, we are learning valuable lessons and spiritual insights that will bless our lives and the lives of others. Tom, Stephanie, Malcolm, Laura, Wyatt, Bria, Anna and Jensen...we love you and know that are arms are wrapped around you during this most difficult time. We are praying for you.

  6. No words can explain how sad this news has made me feel... I have thought often of you and your family, wondering what you were up to since we left PV~ I never dreamed I would get this message, but do know that Heavenly Father is aware of every challenge in your lives. Our savior has suffered so much more than any of us could possibly suffer, and it is comfort to know that He has done it all and will shoulder our burdens and ease our load if we will let him. We used to sing a song in the little church where I grew up: "We'll understand it by and by..." Small consolation, Tom, but I know you will be strong for Stephanie even as she remains strong for you and the family! Our prayers are with you all~

  7. Sorry to hear the severe pain has returned. We think about and pray for both of you. We have learned over the past few years that Heavenly Father uses these experiences to teach us things that we could not learn in any other way. "Be still and know that I am God" Easier said than done. He will be there every step of the way though and so will you friends and family. We love you.
    Steve and Melanie

  8. Stephanie, I just want you to know that I promise to pray for you every day. I know from personal experience that there is healing in Christ, and I am asking Him to touch you and heal you. I am so grateful that I have had the privilege of knowing you and your precious family, and I look forward to some day walking down the beach with you and rejoicing in your healing. Carol Short

  9. Hi Tom
    I was in Rocky Point painting the boat "Grey Wolf" when I received the forward from Alice about your wonderful wife's health condition. To tell the truth my heart just sank and I wanted to write you then, but I didn't know how to say what I wanted to say.
    What I want to tell you is "what a blessing you have been to Alice and me". We have been blessed to have made the trip on Grey Wolf and coming back up we had the joy of meeting you and your family in P.V. We have told so many people of the kindness you showed to us while we were there, picking up Alice for church, taking us shopping with you and the great time we had having dinner with you and your family at your home.
    What I am trying to say is "You and you family have been a blessing to so many people." I am sure that doesn't make you feel any better, but I wanted you to know that God has used you in a mighty way to touched lives.
    God bless you and keep you. Lean on Him as you travel through this life. The best is yet to come.